Because some people are rational thinkers, or rather because they are rational beings, most of them succeed in life and thus able to achieve great things or whatever they had targeted since young. What made me or brought me up till this point, is ironically, being a typical rational being as well.

It's been 7 years.
And not a single call.

Yo! It's a cool tuesday morning without any tuesday blues because there's no school! (it kind of rhymes) Yup for some strange reason the school actually allowed us to stay at home for self study and that shows that the prelims aren't too far away I suppose. Not knowing exactly how many more days to prelims, toppped with the fact that I'd probably lost my prelim timetable, all I know is that I've GP paper this week, next week is holidays once again and the following week is prelims again, which I think I've papers everyday la so I shall just go school every morning.


Thinking back, I can conclude that time flies, I even forgot when did I last watch a movie, forgot when did I last go to Vivo, forgot when did I last finish my maths induction tutorial and basically forgetting everything and when did they happen.


Some farewell thing which i forgot when, marks the end of ps. Investiture marks the end of council. July marks the end of nyaa gold. Movy fest 2 marks the end of my last proposal. It's sad just to think of these things. However, it means that there's a new beginning again. It's what I like to term it as 'cycle of life', where things just end at a particular point of time and new things would come and OH SIAN once again you'll find youself in deep shit because it's difficult to adapt to the new enviroment.


There are things in my mind which are worrying and exciting. I'm particularly worried for my a levels. It's been 2 years and for the first time I feel screwed (ouch) and it's just so demoralising. GP is an ongoing torture, maths tortured me, econs err.. hell. It's really that bad. More often than not, many students would tell their friends that they are screwed as well (ouch) and not coping well in their studies at all. I really dispise such people. They can and are able to cope with their studies but because they just want to sound stupid or trying to plan a surprise 'attack' when the A levels draws near.


What will I do if I failed my GP? What step to take next? While others enter university with a smile, I frown with a screw in my ass because I failed GP. Such thoughts are so demoralising yet so real because it can actually happen and the probability of it happening isn't very small!


I always hate expectations. I really do. On the other hand, without expectations, what would push me on to study and save me from a screwdriver and a screw? Sigh.

After yesterday soccer matches, I do think Arsenal really improved. The way they play, their spirit is really so much more positive as compared to last year. Just look at the number of good through passes to the strikers or rather, look at the number of players giving through passes compared to last year. Comparing to other clubs like liverpool, gerrard plays at the heart of the midfield, at chelsea, lampard and in man u, keane, whos now no longer a player already. Without the central person in the heart of the pitch, they probably can't function as well. Arsenal is slightly different. Febby isn't that great yet to be considered the heart of Arsenal, so probably responsibility is shared among all the midfield players. Just by watching yesterday match vs man city, it's absolutely amazing, the way they pass the ball, the way they KEEP the ball, the way they play soccer, woah.


ahhh another day gone, today is a Sunday, tomorrow there's school omg. So all in all, I predict it's going to be sian sunday once again. Oh and one day nearer to exams, though I'm not sure exactly how many more days left though.

Now I finally understand why I'm not suited for a religion. I don't mean any sort of insult, but yea nevermind better not say it. I notice some people just give their fullest attention on a particular matter or issue without thinking about any other things or factors etc. That's what make different people different, unique people unique, strange people strange, cute people cute, you get the idea. To couples, that's what attracts. Like magnets, like poles will never come together naturally. That's what most people say or rather believe in.


Of course there's the other side. Some people believe that it's differences that would lead to troubles, arguments and fights, because they are the source for disagreements. To them, people who are alike would get along better, people who can appreciate things together even though it might just be a cup of coffee or watching the stars at night etc. would get along better.


No intentions really. Just pure crap. Sigh what a :/ Saturday. So sian to the extent that I can take time to blog twice today. Oh bye.

ahhhhh. Had a lousy morning, mainly because of the stupid hard gay thing and no breakfast! Moreover, my house feels so empty. Both my parents and sis went to KL and I'm all alone with my dog. Anyway, since I'm so bored I might as well just use the time to blog so that i don't feel my time had been wasted.


Had a good day yesterday. Basically went to sch like any other day, forgetting to hang up my uniform to dry so I've to iron it till for it to dry faster. Yup, went for 1 hour civics and ponned all e way till school end. For what you may ask. To study. LOL ponning lessons just to study, sound so muggerish. Anyway, we studied till we got sian and went home! Didn't have a good night though. It was a boring night, totally :/ and lousy dinner because I've to cook it myself.


Same this morning, woke up feeling :/ and even more so when i thought of gp. It actually sucks to not know what you not know because if you know what you not know it's so much more relieving then not knowing what you not know. So all in all, knowing what you not know is better than not knowing what you not know. Confused eh? Wait till you come across stupid probability questions that will confuse you before you can even attempt to draw out your probability tree.


I'm in such a deficit position, in terms of finanical, studies and

ahhh. There's a lot of things going through my mind right now. Well, I don't think I'll personally say them all out, so since I can't let things out through my mouth, my fingers shall do the job for me instead.


Exams are around the corner, in fact in a few days time. I don't want to have a mini countdown or calendar that reminds me that I've only a few days left mainly because I think that'll just create more unnecessary stress. Furthermore, as hui puts it, slack cells > brain cells = memory deficit. Yea it might sound funny and catchy but hey this is serious dude. This 'theory' applies to me. I'm a natural born talent in slacking and nobody can do a better job than me. Coupled together with the fact that my maths and english language aren't very good, oh boy I'm walking a path which may lead me to death in A levels.


Now that's not all. Expectations, both friends and family. Let's start with friends. They continuously praise you on how well you can manage subjects that you are good in. They tend to ask questions such as how did you become such a pro in these subjects. Basically that contributed to pressure to do well in exams because they looked up to you. Family. I believe every student would face this pressure so no much elaboration needed. It's almost the same type of pressure from parents and siblings like everyone else.


Now not only pressure from friends and family. There are other reasons as well. Well, might sound stupid to you, or maybe you would disagree with me. Whatever really. Different people hold different views about the same issue, though they do have similarities.


Nah you know it. You know I know and I know you know. You know what I meant, I know what you meant. You know I know what you meant, while I know you know what I meant, but hopefully they don't know. Even when things are at this stage, even when things are almost near crystal clear, I'm curious why things are still that difficult to handle.

Greetings from chiuming from the chiuming channel! ah crap. Anyway, today it's a nice sunday with i think an exciting night yet to come!
This is due to the 3 main soccer matches that's going to be broadcasted on a cool sunday night, mainly arsenal vs blackburn, manCHEATER united vs manchester city and hoho chelsea vs liverpool. i don't think i'll be watching all three matches, because that'll make me incur a huge opportunity cost of not studying instead as i've quite a bit of hw to do recently. ahhhh it's only now that the teachers from all departments will spam you with ALL their resource practices and packages. goodness. i wonder if anyone would spam you with chocolates and junk food like the way our teachers did it. Yup, so i'll think i'll just watch liverpool and arsenal matches and maybe the mancheater united match. LOL.


Today is a good sunday! Once again spoiled by the many undone hw and revision. However, i think for once lao tian ye is with me. Take for example, i was trying to do my work after lunch, while my mum and sister were watching some drama serial on youtube and they started to become noisy due to the hilarious nature of the show itself. So irritated me, went out to tell them to lower their volume and at that very moment, BAHHHH lao tian ye shouted on behalf of me. So overall, i sounded fierce and they stopped watching immediately. Another example, some idiot called and commented that today was a warm day and only at that point of time do i finally realise that hey it's actually warm here too! So after like a minute or so, lao tian ye cried to bring down the temperature of Singapore. At the same time, he cried because i had to stay in my room and do revision. Whenever i'm slacking, he'll go BAHHH to scold me and wake me up if i'm sleeping. (So sorry for causing so much thunder today)


Anyway apart from all these usual things all revolving about how boring can a weekend be when you can't go out and play, let's talk about something else - life, which in fact it's even more vague than the topic on how boring can a weekend be when you can't go out and play. (But hey IT IS something else from that lousy topic)


i watched tv today (er opps found slacking agn!) and watched this hk programme on travelling to indonesia. So basically it's this celebrity just visiting that poor and under-developed place and sympatise everyone there. At the end of the show, he made this comment in cantonese (oh of course it's from a tvb channel) - 'Most of the time, you feel good when people praise you or when people try to console you when you screwed up in some shitty instances, and feel bad when people heavily critised you on doing something stupid or basically scold you for your mistakes and that's natural reaction. However, it is these scoldings and criticism that allow people to grow in their level of maturity and these criticism are priceless - they don't come very often, but when they come, treasure it, don't throw them away.'


This, is just one of them, i have another one describing on brotherhood or basically maintaining a good relationship with one another, which he finds it lacking in our society. i find it deeply inspiring for some reason and thus lao tian ye didn't BAHHH or anything to hurry me back to work. ahhhh GUARDIAN ANGEL. LOL.


To be honest, I didn't know what i was doing for the past few weeks, so it probably resulted in some confusion and things like that. However, now i do have a clear mind on what i want and what is the correct way to do it.

ahhhh fireworks once agn! LOL they just look so pretty. In the past, i used to be very scared of fireworks. They never fail to give me the feeling that anytime the cannon will accidentally aim at you, fire off and MUAHAHAHA your life is gone for good. Yep so that's why i used to be pretty afraid of fireworks. Soon, i saw some photos taken by PRO photographers and fireworks looks nice! So that made me want to take some photos of fireworks myself. So from that day onwards, everytime there's fireworks, i'll need to prepare hell lot of things - from extra memory card to camera stand to even plan what route to take to where would be the best to take fireworks shots and how to get back etc. When the fireworks show started, i'll then start to panic, like omg omg i cant take any nice photos at all! So practically for the entire show i'm busy taking photos, unaware of my surroundings at all.


Not this time. i specially went to WATCH fireworks and feel the atmosphere there, where the lion just cant stop urinating. (okay maybe he'll stop when it's at midnight and nobody is taking photo with that lion anymore) The atmosphere there was great as i expected, but what surprised me was that for the past few years taking photos on fireworks i can actually ignore the entire surrounding i'm in - all the cheers and applause. But it was a nice experience la and to top it off, i went there with a person who brought nice food so yea chocolate rocks. (:


And talking about today! hoho. i was pretty excited about the fact that i'm meeting spencer for the first time. (obviously i mean there's another spencer la) According to ian, he's able to piss ppl off like that way i do it, so according to him we both share the same personality, to some extent. So knowing i can meet spencer, i decided i should not pon (unlike the OH-SO-UNFORTUNATE-I-AM-SICK one, the SIAN-MUMMY-SAYS-I-CANT-GO-OUT one and the SIAN-JS-MUGGING-AND-I-CANNOT-LOSE-OUT ones) so i just went ahead with my initial plan of being late and so i no need wait LOL. (joking ya) Cheng Ken brought me into this seluded area of woodlands and we played soccer there. Play, play, play and finally got injured. Now i can feel the pain in my first toe of my both right and left feet, left ankle, right shin and right elbow. (hey many injures are what that differentiates man and females/boys) Soon, a bunch of kids came to play soccer with us. i felt rather mean or rather WE felt rather mean because we ended up playing 'monkey' because they just cant get the ball away from us. Yea but they were a cute bunch of little kids consisting of a pri 2 indian and 2 random foreigner kids who don't speak english.


ah shall stop here. time to do work! Oh oh and someone surprised me with what he said i think ytd "aiya just come and play soccer la, you study that extra hour just because you want to win us. You not competing with our class only eh, competing with all the other schools!" So yea that's the sentence of they day and chiuming from the chiuming channel signing off. Have a nice weekend.

one afternoon,
a parent had prohibited her son from going out,
due to her son's misbehaviour in school.
on that particular afternoon,
the boy was bored.
he decided to look out the window,
maybe he would see something that might catch his attention.

he saw a wild dog being dragged by 2 animal policemen,
they threw the dog into their van
and drove off.


the boy said to himself, "poor dog."


soon later, a bird flew past his window
and landed just outside his window.
the bird made eye contact with the boy
and the bird thought to itself,
"poor boy."


came across this simple story.
yet its meaning fits perfectly into our lives.
its interesting to see how different ppl
react differently to the same issue.
but they all share one similarity dont they
and the similarity is - _________.


(super vague, but its room for thought.)

and national day started with a rainy, cold morning.
so cold that if i didnt know im in singapore,
i thought it was alr winter in august.


yep i decided to go out for fireworks at night!
since its national day, go out out of respect for e nation la.
but before that in e afternoon,
i did some maths revision thing la.
LOL and just went out for dinner with a top class shithead!


i think i'll eat subway every national day.
LOL cheap eh. 1 foot, 1 drink, 2 cookies - $6.55
wah shiok man! and they were surprisingly generous!
e ham is like as thick as ur skin!
and and they added alot of honey mustard! :D


after which went to watch fireworks la.
it was crowded, crampy and everything.
so i really dun see e point in bringing a jacket.
but aiya then agn, living up to e reputation
of being a top class shithead. so :T
yep it was crowded! and aiya crap
e website said it was 9pm!
and wah lao it started at 8.15pm
then yea missed it la.
but it was good enough la to have company. (:


so after tat everyone left and we cont to stone
tgt with my stone. and yep. stone.
ahhh i feel a sudden sianness in blogging
so i shall blog later!

yay! blogging craze is back!
its been such a long time since i last logged in
it all seemed so foreign! LOL.
but then again,
it shows that i can resist e temptation of using com!
and and wen i first logged into msn
there were like 80 over new emails la.
LOL which most of them r from friendster
they jus spam out emails dont they?
and and went to see soccer articles! :D
im living my previous life!
umm a life which i had a few weeks back!


yep so i didnt go for national day cele
because i was sick.
to be specific, i had a headache
OUCH MAN.
but i was alright later at around 7.30am
so yea PHEW yea? PHEW.
but after tat i got a @#*$!%$&@%# flu.
very irritating indeed.
but well wads life without ups and downs!


went to buy zen stone plus after i recovered from my flu!
LOL i got stuck over which colour shld i buy.
but finally decided on white.
TELL YOU SOMETHING.
IT WAS OMG-LY COOL MAN!
i mean its so so so nice and stylish!
u can FEEL the power right in ur own hands!
lol but for now its still charging la.


then hoho spent some time toking cok with jules.
it was a nice chat but well time flies uh.
oh and i came back home soon after we got bored
and jus to find satay and chicken wings waiting for me
to eat them!
they r like calling "eat me eat me!"
LOL and i didnt want to be a wet blanket
so i ate them all.
see how people can become fat overnight. :D


toking bout national day song.
by sun yanzi, it brings back lots of memories la.
dunno its a good or bad thing.
feels so... :T
ahhh nvm.